i am not sure, you know.
there seems to be lots of knowledge to read and sort out. in order to get my views right and clear. especially Buddhism. and also to be exactly clear why and what am i doing, if i continue to serve in the school.
deep down, i am afraid i am leading myself astray, diverting from the path of truth i am seeking.
i am afraid i am feeling and thinking wrongly.
love is not enough. love and wisdom go hand in hand, each one offering a hand to each other when one gets lost.
xxx
as days go by, i am starting to look forward to do something useful, viz service in the school, viz assisting my teacher.
i look forward to settle down and start consolidating and organising the knowledge… not only for school curriculum, but also my own exploration and research… this is exciting.
i pray that the path of doing my karma is smooth.. let me not meet any more setbacks… let me do the work i am meant to do…
and i do love my teacher. coz of what she has offered to me in the hardest times of those years..
and i look forward to do the work of love.
i pray to continue meeting and serving my clients.
i pray to keep uncovering and discovering. to keep transforming and clearing.
xxx
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