feeling sad still. the broken reality of a relationship. how does relationship really work? does all relationship work? not all people can be friends with each other. but how does things fall apart? not all people can be good friends, intimate partners with each other. can we, can i settle for most relationships to be good well-wishing acquaintances? i guess, what more can i ask for? or should i suspect, something in me that needs to change?
the dying and passing of a relationship coz of terrible feelings involved, like an argument, a confession of hurt and apologies.. and still, some apologies do not mend the hole, the crack.
some people are at different levels of maturity to sustain a relationship, to manage their own emotions. so many of us are wounded people, in one way or another, and seeking comfortable people to be with, comfortable relationship to hang on in. some of us seek growth, many of us do not. we just want to remain status quo and let the relationship be nice, sweet and cheery, even if it means pretending to be so.
i still feel sad. it’s even ok that she ignores me. it’s not even my fault. but that’s the way it turns out, that’s the way she chooses to react, that i chose to react.. wrong turn, wrong chemistry. not that i ever dream of great hopes and turns of event between us.
有些人，有些事，就是不能勉强。
因缘。
