The conversation with SL was really meaningful to me. The paradigm of holistic well-being takes on a new practical angle.
any established system have its limitations, no matter how comprehensive it claims. to approach anything in an integrative manner would mean going with the flow, the tao with the recipients (person-centred) and the circumstantial conditions. the principle is integrative, holistic; the method is following with the river with an intuitive and sound acumen.
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i’ve problem getting down into business. doing things i’ve planned. something feel unsettled. not willing to zoom in and throw myself in. the pervasive underlying sense of instability, un-trusting.
it seems about the mess and confusion of people in and out in my childhood home. there is no fixed place for me. i’m always shifting, tucked away or shoved aside by some and any adult. no corner i belonged.
how can i feel more belonged here? to find and secure my place on this world.
>> not be afraid to be wrong, to make mistakes. throw yourself headlong into it. you’ve found the direction, you found the passion in your heart. go for it.
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it’s really nice talking to her for hours, online. it feels we can click, the flow of conversation has been amazing, something i’ve not experienced in a long awhile. just talking about ideas, thoughts, philosophizing, .. without agenda and holding back.
have been thinking of her for a few days now. something about her energy attracted me. her easy-going, maybe. her clear energy field, with no strong armoring or defence. easy, flowing persona. there is nothing for me to hide, filter, mask, .. someone very easy to love and poke fun at.
maybe coz we share the same sun sign. maybe i am looking into myself and loving that part of me that has long lost in midst of complicated soul and ego searching.
it’s nice to know that all these persons that i like are simply mirrors of myself. trying not to be narcissistic. but i don’t want to throw projections and expectations on others, and this often results in hellish control and disappointment.
the way she describes herself is fascinating, and i am like hearing a description of me.
as long as it lasts. no expectation.
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