How different
April 10, 2009
WE sat across the table, dining a fine lunch, i narrating the adventures of the recent retreat. it does not feel like it was the first time we dine out together. it was a vision, a wish fulfilled; but the effect it has on me has been completely different, as compared to if the lunch date has happened before the retreat. A wink of 2 months, the clouds shifted, the arising & passing of 2 full moons… we were all in a different state now.
i fancied the question, “has this come too late? “
No, it happened at the right time. it has to happen after that shift of perspective and emotional states in me.
She must have changed too, but what causes it, i did not ask. It is not necessary for me to know now.
A weight has been lifted from my heart, it is a freedom i have not had for a long time. the full moon continues reflecting its brilliance, and each time i look at it, it is a different brilliance.
